Weekly Blog #19 - Stuck

The past week had been a tough week to say the least. Not that I faced an obstacle that I couldn't get over or there was a death in the family or something even far worse but I felt stuck. I felt like I was living my life but only riding the coattails of it, not truly leading the way. I think it's mostly attributed to not knowing what to do with my life. It's like digging a whole in the dirt and now your stuck there staring at the walls. Sure the exit is right in front of you, almost toughing you even and yet there you are, stuck in the hole.

I don't want to be stuck, I hate the feeling of it. Almost being unable to help yourself yet your the only one who can. I have so many interests it seems like thee choking me. I want to be a astronaut when I was a kid and even the president. When I was in middle school I wanted to be a musician and make music and go on tour. Now I want to be a writer, a illustrator, and a teacher or just a director. One after another, I feel like a rock is being placed on my back weighing me down until one day were I can't bear the weight and just stay where I am in life.

It's a rather dark feeling but an honest one. I also feel a lot of the people my age go through this in one shape or another. We feel bogged down by the unlimited choices we have in life and not the will or the confidence to go after one. Though, I still here and I'm still standing where most would quit. I know what I must do in all honesty. I need to return to college and get my degree, I need to finish my book and know if it's the right path for me, and I need to make something of myself because time waits for no one and it's my time to move. This has been the Weekly Blog, thanks for Reading. Ricardo signing off.